regenerate

Video I shot while waiting for a flight at JFK and transiting at Narita. Also posted on YouTube if you prefer that.

(Originally written: 23rd July 09 @ 01:27 am)
“The fish trap exists because of the fish. Once you’ve gotten the fish you can forget the trap. The rabbit snare exists because of the rabbit. Once you’ve gotten the rabbit, you can forget the snare. Words exist because of meaning. Once you’ve gotten the meaning, you can [...]

(Originally written: 21st July 09 @ 6:49pm)
I realized Times Square is the last place you want to be at on a Friday night. Got lost looking for the Port Authority Bus Terminal, had absolutely no cash because I’d been afraid to go to an ATM alone for about a week, felt really frustrated but eventually [...]

(Note from the present: I’ve decided to jump back & forth on these travel journals instead of posting them chronologically like I originally intended. I figure it really doesn’t matter to the reader and it was really just me being so anal about chronology which as a result made me feel less inspired to post [...]

09:31pm: The best decision I’ve ever made in my entire life was to come to NYC alone.
Learning a lot of things about myself and life. I want to, I need to remain open. I see how crucial it is. For now I’m willing to take the risk of getting hurt. But maybe I need to [...]

08:43 am: I can’t understand what it is I am experiencing so instead I will describe it here:

Is this a near-ecstatic state of being? I used to think that this state of being was not possible in real life, I mean fundamentally I always KNEW without doubt that it was possible or else I wouldn’t [...]

30 March 09: I can’t rationalize the way I feel about Japan. Looking through old photos and feeling such an immense longing to return. It doesn’t make sense – I know I could never live there, but I love it all the same.
I just know that from the second I stepped into Narita for the [...]

05:33 am: I’m feeling a lot of things that are new to me. Further and further down the rabbit hole. I always try to push things a little farther to test my limits and am often surprised when an entire world branches out from that little experiment. I did make the mistake I was afraid [...]

09:11 am: I could never leave this city man. In just three days it’s gotten underneath my skin and in my bloodstream.
I can’t believe it’s only been four days. It feels like it’s been so much longer. Time has been passing by a lot slower in New York, I feel. Or maybe it’s the longer [...]

04:20 pm: Total sensory overload today. More hours of walking around Manhattan – this time completely unplanned. I’m still not eating much which is perhaps worrying. I saw the Empire State building and then a homeless guy nearby.
I probably need to move out of Queens. At least out of Flushing. I need to choose a [...]