Origin

What is the truly original act? Or self? It’s what I want my life to be.

At this point I am here. I’m not even looking at my history – the causal or historical factors that make up my being.

What is the original self? I have learned to be ashamed of my own self and my own words. I have learned to take the words of others as truths over my own.

But I know how to live originally. Not a thing that can be taught or learned. I know how I felt and what I abided in when I made my own way here for the first time.

I understand power as innate. I understand how power emanates and enables. I understand the strength and magnetism from which one has to function.

From now – no more shame and hiding. No more stealing outright from myself. In all, only I write these words now at this point. Yes; with no regard for history or consistency or the future.

Life is not a rational act but perhaps it can be interpreted rationally. Do you want rational interpretations or life?

For now I will sleep when I am tired and eat when I am hungry. I know there is no consistency.