regenerate

09:31pm: The best decision I’ve ever made in my entire life was to come to NYC alone.

Learning a lot of things about myself and life. I want to, I need to remain open. I see how crucial it is. For now I’m willing to take the risk of getting hurt. But maybe I need to push the idea of hurt out of my mind entirely.

Street art in Manhattan

I’m realizing that so much in life is really just up to what you make of it. So much is open to interpretation… For now I choose to interpret all of this as it is. I’m going with the flow here. I’m present, I’m in the moment. I’m enjoying it for what it is. I know that the universe sorts itself out eventually. Eventually things will make sense. For now we just have faith. It’s getting easier to do this. It’s a better way of living for me – I worry less, I feel more alive.

Angel. Somehwere in Manhattan.

I think that you get from life exactly what you put in. It can’t be any other way – at least that’s how it seems to me. I’m getting a whole new life here – exactly what I wanted. Every day I gain confidence and I grow.

Today on the 7 train home I saw the Manhattan skyline backlit by the evening sun.